Manifestations and Going with the Flow or Not

As I mentioned in this post, have an issue going on with my back / leg numbness. It is still going on. Some days it is better, some days, I give WAY too much thought into how things are.

Tomorrow, I go to get a MRI on my neck. Originally, the dr wanted me to have three at the same time - neck, brain, and lower back. I called and cancelled two out of the three, because they didn’t feel right for me. I will be calling to cancel the needle muscle testing (EMG) that they wanted to do too. That really doesn’t feel right to me when I think about it.

I know my body is fully capable of making this situation right, but I am having a tough time focusing in a way to make the going smooth. I find myself focusing on what is, instead of how it will be when the situation is all sorted out.

I was over at Connee and David’s website and found the great page on “Process #21 Reclaiming Ones Natural State of Health”. All the affirmations there do help to give me some relief from the emotional set point I find myself at, at times. What else can I be doing to help myself back into alignment when I am focusing on what is at this moment? It is difficult for me not to notice and focus on the numbness as it is there when I walk and sit. It is a really weird feeling. And the “what ifs” about it all knock me back down to the bottom of the emotional scale. The internet is a wonderful place for info, but can be really bad for your emotional set point.

I keep thinking about how Abraham talks about the stream and how fast you are moving with it. I really think, for the most part, I am really flowing with the stream and loving every minute of it. I feel like the times that unwanted stuff arrives in my experience, I have been in the Stage 4 rapids and hit a very large, well rooted, boulder and I go from “WOW this is way too cool!” to “What the HECK (or stonger word!) happened here!”. I SO do not revel in that type of contrast. I know that is part of the problem, but I don’t know how to appreciate the times that my life is thrown in a different direction.

I wrote about a year ago to the Abraham list , about buying a house that I created and focused on and loved before we actually found it. It was an amazing process and I was so excited when it actually manifested. About a month after we bought it, our house was struck by lightning and caught fire. LOL I was so in denial that I could have had any part of what happened there at the time. I can now see the vibrational contributions I actually made to that episode in my life. Months after the fire, I could see the positive things that came out of it all. Things that we had shot rockets off about that had come to fruition due to the fire. I guess it was the path of least resistance in order to get things in escrow into manifestation. I don’t really like this sort of “crashing into a tree at 100 mph” path of least resistance. How can I focus in a way that makes the “path of least resistance” a little more gentle? I am pretty sure that slowing down the river isn’t possible now LOL

I look forward to any thoughts you may have on any of the subjects in my rambling