If I Chose This Life, Why Such a Crappy Childhood?

I came across a very interesting question recently and it really goes well with another post that I made recently about our childhood baggage that we carry with us.

The person was saying that he understood about law of attraction and so forth, but couldn’t get his mind around the fact that he ended up with parents who appeared not to want him and treated him that way. I am fairly certain there are MANY people out there that can identify with that feeling. He, then, went on to ask if we choose the people we are born to and why in the world would spirit choose such a harsh start to life.

You came forward into this body from a place of total joy, total loving, and worthiness seeking to be on the leading edge of expansion. You were eager for all interactions that life here could give you. The interactions lead to expanded desires. For some, those expanded desires are spurred on by not so great beginnings. Due to the interactions that you had, you launched some VERY strong rockets of desire about what you DID want.

It may be hard to hear and believe, but, EVERYTHING you could possibly want is waiting for you, you just need to get into vibrational alignment with it. Every time someone made you feel unloved, you shot off a rocket of desire that said you wanted to have interactions that made you feel loved. Any interaction where you felt unsafe made you acutely aware of how much you really wanted to feel safe. Any time you felt unwanted, you knew how much you really wanted to be accepted for who you are.

The universe / source heard every part of it, saying you should know and that you are worthy of all that could possibly want and fully agreed that your desires were valid and is ready to provide all the things you wanted to have back then, but were not able to get.

You have some amazing people, interactions, and things waiting for you in your vibrational escrow, as Abraham puts it. Everything that you ever dreamed of is yours and will come to you if you can get yourself into vibrational alignment with that which you are wanting. If you stop and imagine being accepted for who you are, you can feel how that feels. Now, feel the anger surrounding how you weren’t accepted as a child. You can feel the vast difference in the two vibrations. Law of Attraction can not bring you the interactions that will allow you to feel accepted for who you are until you your dominant vibration closer to how you think being accepted will feel.

It is all about going with the flow of the stream and when you realize that you are paddling upstream with how you are feeling to try and make changes that will make you feel better. It is all about feeling better. You can’t control what other people do or think but you do have control over how you feel.

Abraham has a great emotional scale that will help you get to better feeling thoughts which will raise your vibration so you can claim what is yours.

On the scale, find where you are in regards to an issue that you are dealing with.

Perhaps you are really angry about something. Spend a bit of time feeling really angry about it and then pick an emotion a bit of the scale and see if you can think about what you are feeling with the up the scale emotion you chose. Can you turn that anger around and make it more blameful toward the perpetrator? “It’s all YOUR fault that this is the way it is!” Maybe from there you can move up to worry – “What if I NEVER get this sorted out?” “What if I never am able to let go of the past?”

If you take the Angry thoughts you started with and compare it to the Blame and then the Worry, you CAN feel a difference in how they feel. You don’t have to make a jump up to Joy from where you currently are, but you can take baby steps in a better feeling direction.

Okay, so how does this getting to a better feeling thought about it all help? Well, when you go from a very negative feeling thought to a less negative feeling thought, you have turned your boat around and are now going downstream. And as Abraham says, EVERYTHING that you want is DOWNSTREAM. When you reach for a better feeling thought about something that is bothering you, and get there, you raise your vibration and are heading in the direction of what you have in store for you in your vibrational escrow. If you can work your way up the emotional scale in regards to the feelings you have about your childhood, the kick you currently feel in your stomach when you think about it, will lose the kick and it won’t have you in it’s vice grip any longer. Yes it may still be bothersome to you, but you can get to a point about it where it does not carry a negatively charged emotion with it. And you will realize that your worth is not dependent on anyone else’s approval of you. Your inner being and source knows that you are you are worthy and you are loved. Try and move up the emotional scale so YOU realize that as well.