Making it Work vs. Lining Up With What I Want

It’s amazing what writing your issues out can do for you.

I woke up the next morning to still feeling awful about the whole situation. On top of that feeling, I was feeling an urgency to get the issue under control before I started manifesting physical symptoms of illness. I know, without a doubt, due to seeing it happen repeatedly, that any illness I get is in direct relationship to how much paddling up river I am doing.

On top of the illness that I was in the process of creating, how I was focusing didn’t feel good. Point Blank. I didn’t feel good about how I was focusing. Abraham’s teachings helped me learn that if it feels good, it is, and if it doesn’t feel good, then it isn’t good.

If it feels good to you, you’re in alignment with something you desire. If it feels bad to you, you are not. If it feels good to you, you’re in alignment with something you desire. If it feels bad to you, you are not. Don’t let anybody else’s determination of what is good or bad, mess up your ability to know what’s good and bad.

Excerpted from the workshop in Boca Raton, FL on Saturday, January 27th, 2001

I guess I have finally reached a place in my life where alignment and feeling good are more important than trying to control the situation at hand.

Making it Work (aka the Action Journey)

I found that I was trying to get Steve to change his behavior to make me feel better. Try as I may, or as he may, it never worked well enough to make me feel better for that long. “If only he would do xyz then I would feel better about this situation I have no control over.” I have found, over time, that it is a futile journey. I have no control over what others do. To rely on them to jump through my hoops in order for me to claim my happiness is creating a situation that is doomed to failure. My happiness is MY responsibility, not someone else’s.

You are born with this magnificent emotional guidance system because your emotions tell you your vibrational content. Many people do not understand the purpose, or the power, or importance of their emotions and so, they do not seek to do anything about the way they feel. They have come to accept in many cases, in fact we would say in most cases, that the way I feel in my human body is a byproduct of the conditions that surround me, so good conditions make me feel good, but not good conditions make me feel bad. And so then most humans set out in an erroneous, ineffective, inefficient, impossible endeavor to control conditions. It’s hopeless. First of all, the majority of conditions that exist are not even any of your business. You have no creative power within them. And second, even if they were your business, you can’t control them. It is a futile endeavor. Your work IS about controlling the way you feel which means you are controlling the way you vibrate and when you control the way you vibrate, you are controlling your vibrational output, and when you are controlling your vibrational output, then you can control - you are matching up with your own desire. But until then, you truly are powerless and we can understand why there is frustration in that experience. But of course, when you come to understand that you can control your mood, you can control your attitude, you can control the way you feel, because you CAN control that which you give your attention to. You CAN control you focus. When you discover that you can control your focus, then you discover you are the creative molder or honer of energy.

Abraham - Monterrey, CA 8/21/01

Residual Vibrations

I know Steve is in my vibrational escrow. I created him and the magnificent life that I wanted long before it actually happened. I was in his escrow as a wonderful outcome as well. What seems to creep up, every so often, are residual vibrations. Along with the massive amount of wonderful stuff, there are a vibrational connection on issues that I have been carrying around with me for a very long time.

The PTSD, and the way it makes him feel, triggers those negative vibrations that are foundational vibrations that were laid by my early family life.

I can now see that this is the case and know what I have to do in order to try and resolve these vibrational issues. EFT has helped me come a VERY long way in regaining my conscious connection to source. I have no doubt that I will move this vibration to a better place.

So it’s fun for us to watch people get hold of this idea of finding relief, finding relief, finding relief because when your intent is to feel good no matter what the subject is that moves through your mind … so subject after subject, you just find the best feeling thought about it that you can find. Before you know it because of all this different variety of subjects, you’ve cleaned up these core issues that you’ve been carrying around for a while. And then you are finally this loving being who feels invincible.

Abraham-Hicks, San Francisco 2.24.07A

Ahhhh, yes, that feeling of relief is wonderful. I am well on my way to feeling invincible.

Vibrationally Lining Up With What I Want

The cool thing about how this is all unfolding is that I am acutely aware of when I am not feeling good about something. In the past, I would adopt an Eeyore-ish point of view, accepting the bad as just an unfortunate side effect of being alive. The teachings of Abraham have helped me realize that I am not a victim of life, but rather the creator of my life. Wow. I have all that power?? Really? Wow! I DO have all that power!!

Stepping back, I can see the journey I have taken regarding the PTSD. I can see how it has helped me become clearer about what I want in life. Now it is time to focus just on what I want instead of the “what is” of the current situation.

I was able to sit down and talk with Steve regarding our relationship. I know my feelings are my responsibility. I know he is still in my vibrational escrow, as he is now and what he is to become. I am determined to line up my vibrations on what it is I want. I am looking towards a happy, healthy future. We will be able to grow old, happily, together. Ahhh, what a wonderful reality. Instead of looking at what is, I am consciously choosing to look to the future I want, even when it isn’t apparent in the now.

Abraham talks about when you have a choice, you need to line up with the choice. If you stay, line up with that decision. If you want to leave, line up with that decision. There is no right or wrong decision. Every decision is right as long as you line up with it. Don’t leave and then second guess the decision. Don’t stay and lament your situation. Make the decision and then move on joyously in your decision.

My decision is to love him through the eyes of source, knowing that he is on a journey to a much better feeling place. I know he will make it through. I don’t have to show him how to get there. Just staying connected to source, and seeing him through the eyes of source, will be a beacon to draw him closer and closer to where he is trying to go. We will have many joy filled years to explore and grow together. And I so appreciate that. My main intent is to focus on the whole, loving, beings we intended to be. I believe, with all that I am, that we will make it through - together.