Taking Action

So… I decided it was time to get to the core of my issue . *gulp* I am scheduling an appointment with my therapist and am looking forward to some dramatic changes

Hi Martha,

I need to schedule a tapping session with you. It can be at either of your locations.

In order to get clear and to help you help me the quickest let me tell you what is going on.

I am actually taking part in a challenge online where you pick something you want to manifest in 45 days.

My challenge is below:

“My goal for this challenge is to start forming friendships with some people locally and go out and have a good time with them. I want friends, dang it, people who I can talk to when I need to talk and people I can hang out with and have a good time.

It’s time for me to open that avenue of my life. I KNOW I have huge things to come in my life. I am just not allowing it in. I can create fabulously on my own, but the things that I could co-create with others has to be beyond what I could imagine.

My fears associated with this goal are substantial. I am always a little envious of people have have the natural ability to be at ease in public situations. I have so many things I need to deal with in order to feel comfortable with this. Sometimes it is just easier to hang out in my house, with my family, or online.”

It is funny (sorta) because I have discovered a couple of things. Being authentic with people online is a snap. Going to events locally, where I know there will be at least one person I know, is easy (though still a little stress inducing). But going somewhere where I don’t know anyone is WAY stress inducing. I am going to the I Can Do It conference in Tampa in October and have been talking myself in and out of it since I signed up. The stress level about being there and not knowing anyone is way over the top. When I went to my Abraham conference, there were tons of people there but I didn’t talk to anyone. In the breaks, I went and sat by myself. I don’t want to do that anymore!!

The funny thing is, the idea of getting in front of a group of people and talking is not stress inducing to me at all. It’s the one on one, “what if they don’t like me, or what if I say something stupid” what ifs that are messing me up. I know they are related to my growing up, but I REALLY REALLY want to get over this issue.

It has been following me around for as long as I can remember. “It’s always safest by myself” seems to be a core vibe. When I went away to college, I spent the first 3 weeks dining by myself, studying by myself, and being by myself in my room. Luckily someone came and knocked on my door and said Come Out and hang with us. And then, it wasn’t an issue anymore.

Since you have worked with me so much in the past year or so, I know you are seeing things that I am not having the light bulb moment about. Hopefully this is the first step to opening a door that I have kept firmly shut for a very long time!

Thanks!
Vickie