Guidance From Source

It’s been quite a while since I have posted anything regarding my personal journey. I had hit a point where I was choosing to look at things in a way that wasn’t favorable to where I ultimately wanted to be. I focused on the less than good feeling aspects of my life and my relationship and it just felt BAD. I knew I needed to do something to change my focus but had a very hard time getting to a different feeling place. I did have the good sense to NOT post on and on about it LOL but chose to work my way up the emotional scale, as well as I could, when I was able.

Co-creation can be a difficult road at times. When my husband and I found each other over 12 years ago, I was definitely in a place that was a match to where he was. We were both striving to become bigger and better and basically conquer the world together. As the years went on, and I discovered EFT, Abraham and the Law of Attraction, I started feeling that a widening gap was appearing. And then, he was diagnosed with PTSD. My dream of living, happily, well into old age, with him, was becoming harder and harder to envision and I mourned for what I thought I was losing.

The past couple of weeks have been particularly difficult for me for some reason. I can’t pinpoint what exactly the issue is, but I could tell that it felt bad. I was torn about what I should do. I didn’t know if envisioning our future together was crossing the lines of “creating in another’s reality” which Abraham says you are unable to do. Was I holding onto a vision that wasn’t possible? In my heart, I felt, and feel, that we are meant to be together, happily, for a VERY long time. The path we have traveled together the past couple of years, has had me heavily focusing on the things that I don’t want instead of what I do want.

These issues were creating a “funk zone” for me where I would put my head down and muddle through, trying to figure out what my next step was.

Today, I had a wake up call from a very unexpected place.

I was sitting at a stop light and looked up at the truck that was stopped beside me.

While you can’t see the full text in the picture, due to the traffic moving, the message said:

“Create Your Dream”.

I turned the corner and started crying. The message could not have been more clear to me. I have been focusing in the wrong direction long enough and it was time to create what I really wanted.

I still had the doubt in me, though, and had to make sure that my dream was something that my husband would also want. I went home and we had another conversation. The PTSD makes it so he can’t really focus into the future. He plans moment to moment in order to make it through the day. So, I let him know what MY dream for us was and asked him if he could see that too. It was a powerful, emotional conversation. We are both on board with the vision of a happy, long future together. It is something that he would want too. What RELIEF for me! So now, I can create away and envision the future the way I want it to be – Together, Whole and Happy. We WILL get there, I have full faith in that!