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Today is my 12th Wedding Anniversary. It seems like yesterday that this wondrous ride started.

The story behind our romance was something straight out of a fairy tale. Little did I know, at the time, it was a case of law of attraction at it’s finest.

Back about 13 years or so ago, I met a friend, named Jen, in a chat room on CompuServe. She i is the one who actually started me this wondrous journey. She told me about the Celestine Prophesy (a wonderful book) and we discussed her spiritual theories at length. I was a doom and gloomish person at the time and, while I wanted to believe that there was something bigger and better out there, I didn’t see it happening in my life. In hindsight, I was just getting more of what I expected in life.

She helped me see that there was so much more in life than what I was living. I remember the day when I threw up my hands and said, to what ever powers that be, “I deserve to be happy! Lead me to where I need to be in order to be happy.” At that point, *I* became the person who counted. My needs, my desires, my wants were what mattered to me. My decisions, after that point, were solely based on the belief that we all deserve to be happy, especially me.

I decided it was time to end a unhappy marriage. Around that same time, I “met” Steve in that same chat room on Compuserve. He was the safe voice of reason, 3000 miles away, who listened to me during the times that followed my asking for a divorce. I stayed in the apartment with my ex-husband for a little over 2 months in order to try and not leave him in a major financial bind.

After I moved back home with my mom, the email relationship moved to a phone / email relationship. I had a very clear view of what type of love I was looking for. I knew what the relationship, when it appeared, would be like. I remember my mom saying that love like that didn’t exist. I’m glad I didn’t listen to her. I held fast to what I knew was out there.

At the end of December, Steve came over to visit for the first time. We were both nervous because we had really forged a bond over the miles between us, but the real test would be the in person meeting. The sparks where there in person as they were over the miles. That meeting officially started exciting roller coaster ride of our life together!

I went to England to visit in February.
In March, he came to the States.
In April, I went to England and he proposed! I said yes!
In May, my divorce was finalized.
In June, I moved to England.
In July, we were married and we had a baby on the way!
In less than a year, my life turned itself totally around.

Now, it is 12 years later.
2 Continents later.
3 Children later.
7 House Moves later.
1 New Home Later.
1 House Fire Later.
A growing business that went from one home, to another and then into leased space and then into bigger leased space later.
A Challenging Illness Later.

And I would not change a thing. I have looked over the letters I sent to Steve all that time ago. All the sentiments that I had in those letters still hold true today. I still believe he is my knight in shining armor. He has taught me so much about myself in this process we call life. I have grown and learned so much about myself and about life. I have become a better person for loving him.

I am so happy I made that leap of faith 12 years ago. If I had doubted my ability to do it, and stayed put in the familiar, I would never have had the opportunity to become the person I am today.

Here’s to many, many more years with you dear. I love you, and appreciate you more each year. I appreciate this journey we have gone on, together.

So, I’m at work and a bit slow to get moving.  I see over 8,000 spam in my spam folder.  The vast majority of it is the run of the mill spam.  BUT there are some that literally make me laugh out loud with their subject lines.  Hey, if we have to endure the spam, we might as well get a giggle out it from time to time. And no, I don’t click on the links - no matter how enticing the subject might be. LOL

Here are a few I discovered as I leafed through the junk mail:

Martian Soil Fantastic For Growing Weed Says Nasa
Hillary Clinton Sex Tape Shocker!
Jesus Christ To Star In Next Series Of Big Brother
James Bond To Have Gay Lover In New Film
Mccain And Bush To Dance In Puppet Show
Both Obama And Mccain Claim That They Will Deport Elton John
Britney Spears Stashed Guns In Her Vagina - Papparazzi Duck For Cover
Bush Averts Albanian Uprising By Invading Alabama
Madonnas Former Home Destroyed By Jesus
Angelina Jolie And Madonna Compete For Adoption Of Jamie Lynn Spears Baby

Have a fabulous day!

Vickie

June was hard. VERY hard. Despite the darkness of that month, I am thankful for that contrast. It has helped me reaffirm that everything really does turn out in the end. The how or when may not be blatantly obvious, but it WILL turn out okay. Sometimes, it is hard to keep that faith when you are in the middle of something that shakes you to your core .

My husband has been trying to find level for the past year and a half. We have had to endure countless, not helpful, medication changes. Some of the changes pushed him deeper into the abyss of his depression and ptsd. The medication change in June caused a crash that I was unsure he would survive. By the end of June, I wasn’t sure how I was going to cope much longer. My rose colored glasses lost their rosiness.

And then…

July came with a new med change. We have finally found a medication combination that has allowed the husband that I remembered to return. I am seeing him smile again. I am hearing him laugh. What music to my ears! You don’t realize how much you appreciate those small things until they are viciously ripped away. WE are “we” once again. I am SO thankful for level. I am a better person for having experienced this. I appreciate him exactly as he is. I am stronger for having experienced this.

It really does turn out just right, in time, if you allow it.

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