Archive for October, 2006

As I mentioned in this post, have an issue going on with my back / leg numbness. It is still going on. Some days it is better, some days, I give WAY too much thought into how things are.

Tomorrow, I go to get a MRI on my neck. Originally, the dr wanted me to have three at the same time - neck, brain, and lower back. I called and cancelled two out of the three, because they didn’t feel right for me. I will be calling to cancel the needle muscle testing (EMG) that they wanted to do too. That really doesn’t feel right to me when I think about it.

I know my body is fully capable of making this situation right, but I am having a tough time focusing in a way to make the going smooth. I find myself focusing on what is, instead of how it will be when the situation is all sorted out.

I was over at Connee and David’s website and found the great page on “Process #21 Reclaiming Ones Natural State of Health”. All the affirmations there do help to give me some relief from the emotional set point I find myself at, at times. What else can I be doing to help myself back into alignment when I am focusing on what is at this moment? It is difficult for me not to notice and focus on the numbness as it is there when I walk and sit. It is a really weird feeling. And the “what ifs” about it all knock me back down to the bottom of the emotional scale. The internet is a wonderful place for info, but can be really bad for your emotional set point.

I keep thinking about how Abraham talks about the stream and how fast you are moving with it. I really think, for the most part, I am really flowing with the stream and loving every minute of it. I feel like the times that unwanted stuff arrives in my experience, I have been in the Stage 4 rapids and hit a very large, well rooted, boulder and I go from “WOW this is way too cool!” to “What the HECK (or stonger word!) happened here!”. I SO do not revel in that type of contrast. I know that is part of the problem, but I don’t know how to appreciate the times that my life is thrown in a different direction.

I wrote about a year ago to the Abraham list , about buying a house that I created and focused on and loved before we actually found it. It was an amazing process and I was so excited when it actually manifested. About a month after we bought it, our house was struck by lightning and caught fire. LOL I was so in denial that I could have had any part of what happened there at the time. I can now see the vibrational contributions I actually made to that episode in my life. Months after the fire, I could see the positive things that came out of it all. Things that we had shot rockets off about that had come to fruition due to the fire. I guess it was the path of least resistance in order to get things in escrow into manifestation. I don’t really like this sort of “crashing into a tree at 100 mph” path of least resistance. How can I focus in a way that makes the “path of least resistance” a little more gentle? I am pretty sure that slowing down the river isn’t possible now LOL

I look forward to any thoughts you may have on any of the subjects in my rambling

Message from the Universe: You have within you the power to create…

Hmmm, I think this check would be enough to do a really nice deck off the back of the house. I would like part of the deck to be covered so the outside could be enjoyed in the icky mosquito season. In addition to the deck, I would like a water feature with a water fall / pond integrated into the design. It would be lovely to be able to sit out there and listen to the water and the birds… ahhhhh With the screened porch, I could choose to sit in the shade, or out in the sun. Sounds like a mini vacation right at home! Thanks U

Message from the Universe: What a glorious time to be alive!

My the time went fast since this check popped up! So fast, in fact, that there is another one waiting now

I guess it is time to play catch up

Let’s see, I think I will use the $20,000 to do some updates to a couple bathrooms in our house. I would like to fix the one near the living room so it isn’t so… ummm closet like I guess. I want the toilet and sink replaced and the flooring as well. It really needs to be easy clean and durable though as the kids use this one quite a bit.

I think for the $20,000, I should be able to get this stuff done and perhaps a new sink top for the upstairs bathroom

I would also like to redo the one in the office too. I would like to remove the shower in this one and definitely replace the sink, toilet and the flooring. I need to figure out if there is an easy way to contain the cat box as well so the cat litter doesn’t get tracked all over the place.

I found this quote while surfing around today at Unconditional Happiness

Abe: All Illness is Vibrational

(Abraham talks about dis-ease with a woman labeled with fibromyalgia)

” It is an interesting thing…as we watch you, you will find yourself aware of a physical reaction. And almost without exception you want to know, ‘ What did I eat? What did I do?’- you’re looking for some ‘outside’ reason for it. You are almost happy to receive a diagnosis that ‘explains’ to you, why you are feeling what you are feeling. And if we were in your physical shoes, and we had a physical sensation, we would stop and make an announcement…’ I have just diagnosed myself with vibrational misalignment. I’m in a state of vibrational resistance.’

…A headache means you’re misaligned. A gut ache means you’re misaligned. When your ankles ache your’re misaligned. In other words, when your fingers are stiff you’re misaligned. It means you’re summoning the Energy BUT you’re not letting to flow through.

Don’t get LOST in the diagnosis. Don’t get LOST in the medicine. Don’t get LOST in what’s happened to everybody else. Don’t get LOST in the statistics about what somebody else did about it. Let it be CLEAR to you that if you don’t FEEL good, it is because you’re not THINKING in a way that ALLOWS the energy to flow. You could just get really, really mad at someone you love and make every muscle in your body stiff…and you say ‘Gee, I didn’t climb any ladder. I didn’t get run over by any trucks… why does my body feel this way?’ And we said because you’ve got energy going in opposite directions! You’ve had a vibrational tug of war going on.

WE WANT YOU TO STOP LOOKING FOR ANYTHING OTHER THAN YOUR MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL STATE OF BEING AS ANSWERS TO WHY YOU FEEL HOW YOU FEEL IN YOUR PHYSICAL BODY!

EVERYTHING IS VIBRATIONAL.

Doesn’t matter what diagnosis has been given to you. It doesn’t matter. It is temporary.”

Abraham-Hicks, 12/20/03

 

I have been battling with myself over this issue for a couple of weeks now.  I have something going on in my back (pinched nerve perhaps) that is causing my lower legs and feet to feel numb.  It is SO hard to not focus on the issue at hand.  Unfortunately, doing that focusing only causes the issue to stay with me.  I have Dr.’s appointments set up to FIX the issue or help me make an action plan that will help me erradicate the problem.  Again, not something that will fix the issue but make it worse.  It’s the right brain knowing versus the left brain analyzing and trying to find something that will fix the issue.  Man, this paddling up river is tiring. 

In an effort to let go of the battle, and go with the flow, I went in search of the Abraham processes and I found one that really spoke to me.    Connee and David from What A Nice Website.com have wonderfully laid out processes for helping us along.

This is what I will be printing out and reading several times a day to help my right brain do it’s work

*      It is natural for my body to be well.
*      Even if I don’t know what to do in order to get better, my body does.
*      I have trillions of cells with individual Consciousness, and they know how to achieve their individual balance.
*      When this condition began, I didn’t know what I know now.
*      If I had known then what I know now, this condition couldn’t have gotten  started.
*      I don’t need to understand the cause of this illness.
*      I don’t need to explain how it is that I’m experiencing this illness.
*      I have only to gently, eventually, release this illness.
*      It doesn’t matter that it got started, because it’s reversing its course right now.
*      It’s natural that it would take some time for my body to begin to align to my improved thoughts of Well-Being.
*      There’s no hurry about any of this.
*      My body knows what to do.
*      Well-Being is natural to me.
*      My Inner Being is intricately aware of my physical body.
*      My cells are asking for what they need in order to thrive, and Source Energy is answering those requests .
*      I’m in very good hands .
*      I will relax now, to allow communication between my body and my Source.
*      My only work is to relax and breathe.
*      I can do that.  I can do that easily.

I think I will end this with a quote from Abraham from yesterday:

We would like to leave you with this very clear knowing that we hold: You are just a few laughs away from letting a whole lot of good stuff in. You are just a few kisses away from letting a whole lot of good stuff in. You are just a little bit of relief away from letting a whole lot of good stuff in.

Quote selected by Jerry and Esther Hicks
From the workshop recording G-3-5-05

I’M off in search of some laughs and kisses

From Choosing Prosperity

The process, Memo to Manger, is based on Abraham-Hicks book

To: Universal Manager of Well-Being
From: Me
Date: Today
Re: Projects now in your hands

I. First of all, tremendous thanks and gratitude for all of the guidance and support that I have received over the past week:

- Stephen being in a great mood for the most part
- The kids finally getting over the cough that they have had for 2 weeks.
- Rain so I didn’t have to water the trees
- Visit with Suzette
- New art from the kids to pin up at work
- Jen coming around to allowing us to help her with her homework without attitude.
- Walking with the kids.
- SJ playing hard in the rain gully LOL
- Sharing energy

II. Please support me in whatever way would best serve to expedite the following easily, effortlessly, and for the highest good of all concerned:

- My pinched nerve and numb legs
- Time spent at work
- Needing a vacation
- Getting windows replaced

III. Please support me in drawing the following to me in the most appropriate time/space sequence:

- Health - So I can play more fully and enjoy romping with the kids.
- Wealth - So I can do what I want when I want
- Time to do both of the above!

Note from Elyse: I then e mail the memo to myself and put it in an e mail file called Manager. It is amazing to review past e mails and note the miracles that have happened regarding things in the memo.