Archive for August, 2007

Sometimes, when the right this minute “what is”, has all your attention, it can be a bit difficult to shift how you are feeling.

If you continue to focus on the negative aspects of “what is”, what do you think will happen? You will end up with more of the negative you are focusing on.

August 18 - Ask and It Is Given - Perpetual Flip Calendar

Like a magnet, you are attracting thoughts, people, events, lifestyles - everything that you are living. And so, as you see things as they are, you attract more of the same; but as you see things as you would like them ot be, you attract them as you would like them to be. This is why the better it gets, the better it gets; or the worse it gets, the worse it gets — people tend to look mostly at what is.

August 20 - Ask and It Is Given - Perpetual Flip Calendar

Remember, you live in a Vibrational Universe, and all things are managed by the Law of Attraction. And you get what you think about, whether you want it or not, because whenever you achieve vibrational harmony with something because you are giving it attention, the vibrational essence of it will, in some way, begin to show up in your experience.

You’re always getting a perfect vibrational match to what you predominantly give your attention to. But you’ve got to make the best of it. You’ve got to vibrate slightly different from where you are if you are going to improve where you are. You can’t keep taking score of where your business is or your relationship is, or your body is, without continuing to create it as it is. To make improvement, you’ve got to reach for a different thought.

Excerpted from the workshop in Tampa, FL on Saturday, December 6th, 2003

All Is Well
http://www.abraham-hicks.com

Believe me, I can vouch for Abraham’s take on this! This past two weeks has had the negative aspects I have been focusing on popping up in all different aspects of my life. Yep, I did that! It seems that I am trapped in the negativity quagmire.

Abraham suggests that if you can’t find a better feeling thought to change your focus to something else. Since I am having a hard time working up the emotional guidance scale on the issues in my life, I have to take my attention away from “what is” for temporary relief, which will hopefully move me in a different direction. This is where your help comes in.

What movies or books can you recommend that are light hearted, funny or silly?

I would really love to have some side splitting laughs, but while we have a Blockbuster membership, I rarely use it. Let me know what movies or books have had you laughing out loud and I will get my Blockbuster and Library cards warmed up!

August 28 - Ask and It Is Given - Perpetual Flip Calendar

There is no reason why Well-Being is not pouring into your experience - in precise detail in response to all of the things you have identified that you want - other than the fact that you are in a bad mood, or are angry, or worried about something.

It has been an obnoxiously, long, tedious week for me. The quote above says it all. Angry, bad mood, and worried all at the same time. How easy it is to look at “what is” and get pulled into the whirlpool of emotions that reflect “what is” at the moment. More positive thinking, while what is necessary in order to move forward, is not coming easily these days. So, add frustration to the list of emotions above.

I am looking forward to better days ahead.

I have never really considered my blog a personal development blog, but after a bit of contemplation and a good definition by Lorraine Cohen on Lyman’s blog, Creatingabetterlife.net, I decided that perhaps my blog did fit into that category.

Building upon your point that personal development covers so many areas. Developing anything that involves expanding perspective, creating new thought and experience opens doors to possibilities. Because of our uniqueness, we all bring a fresh perspective that, when combined, brings a picture greater than what we might have created alone. And when that picture is all inclusive without judgments or needing to be right, well, it gets pretty cool!

Priscilla Palmer from Personal Development Demands Success decided to put together a list of outstanding personal development bloggers.

She writes:

Personal development is a large topic that includes but is not limited to (law of attraction, goals, time management, physical fitness, education, motivation, inspiration, and social skills). This list should include any blog you feel can benefit us in our growth process.

She tagged Lyman, and Lyman tagged me and I, in turn, am tagging extraordinary bloggers that I feel fit into this category as well. The list on Priscilla’s blog is getting extensive and there are MANY wonderful bloggers listed there. Some I have or do read and many that I have not. I am looking forward to exploring and having my perspective enriched.

On to my picks

Tori at You Create Reality
Belle Wong at Abundance Journal
Dean Lacono at Law of Attraction for Beginners

Aaron Potts at Today is That Day

Adam Kayce at Monk at Work

Alan Torres at Made to Be Great

Albert Foong at urbanmonk.net

Anita Pathik Law at Power of four Way

Brian Kim at briankim.net

Bob at everyeveryminute

Christine Kane at ChristineKane.com

Craig Harper at Motivational Speaker

Dave Schoof at Engaging the Disquiet

David Rogers at How to Have Great Self Confidence

Dawud Miracle at dmiracle.com

Donald Latumahina at Life Optimizer

Dr. Hal at Northstar Mental fitness blog

Edward Mills at Evolving Times

Gleb Reys at Personal Development Ideas

Gustav at Success-is-in-you.com

Henrik Edberg at The Positivity Blog

Jason Ivers at A Miracle a Day

Jay White at dumb little man tips for life

Jean Browman at Transforming Stress Into Power and Cheerful Monk

Jerry Lopper at Personal Growth

John Place at John Place Online

John Wesley at Pick The Brain

Josh Bickford at Reach For Magnificence

Kammie Kobyleski at Passion Meets Purpose

Karen Lynch at Live The Power

Kim George at Doing What You Can Do

Kirsten Harrell at Ipopin

K.L. Masina at Be Conscious Now

Lee Nutter at bmindful

Leo Baruta at Zen Habits

Life Reflection at Universe in a Single Atom

Liz Strauss at Successful Blog

Lola Fayemi at Real World Spiritual and Personal Development

Lorraine Cohen at Powerfull Living

Lyman Reed at Creating a Better Life

Maria Palma at The Good Life

Mark McManus at Build Your Life To Order

Martin Avis at Kickstart Daily

Michelle Moore at Happiness Blog

Nancy Tierney at Unconditional Confidence

Nneka at Balanced Life Center

Pamm Larry at My Spiritual Dance

Paul at Paul’s Tips

Peter at I Will Change Your Life

Phil Gerbyshak at Make It Great

Priscilla Palmer at Personal Development Demands Success

Raymond Salas at Zenchill Powertools

Reg Adkins at ElementalTruths

Rick Cockrum at Shards of Consciousness

Scott Bernadot at Keeping The Secret

Shauna Arthur at Breathing Prosperity

Steve Olson at Steve-Olson.com

Steve Pavlina at stevepavlina.com

Ted Demopoulos at Blogging For Business

Thom Quinn at Qlog

Tim Ferris at 4-Hour Workweek and Lifestyle Design Blog

Tony D Clark at Success From The Nest

Troy Worman at Orbit Now!

Vickie at Contemplate This

WildBill at PassionateBlogger

After my little rant last evening, I went to bed and had an ephinany. I married my mom! As I thought about how I was feeling, I felt that these emotions were very familiar to me. A theme in my life really which had a basis of my relationship with my mom. I thought I had all that childhood programming all sorted out, umm, well, I guess not!

First thing this morning, I sent a local EFT practioner, whom I have been emailing, an email which said “Okay, it is definitely time now. When can you fit me in?” It is definitely time to get this childhood issue sorted out because it is making it VERY hard to navigate the here and now in a productive way. I go for my first session on Saturday and I have a good feeling about it all. I think this is the start of me being able to “be happy anyway”.

It has been quite the week for me. I was feeling really very connected with source when the hospital visit occurred, but over the past week, I have found that the feeling has become less and less and a feeling of helplessness has become pervasive. I have been beating myself up over this as I intellectually “know better” but the what *IS* of the situation is very much in my face and is currently hard to look at with a different perspective.

I’m feeling trapped in what feels like a “damned if I do, damned if I don’t” life at the moment. It is a huge “what if” circle that is seemingly controlling my life. My husband is depressed with post traumatic stress disorder. I am being told that it could be a coincidence that both times he overdosed just happened to follow an emotional Mt. Vesuvius explosion on my part. Hmmm, coincidence or not, it makes me very wary of exploding because I don’t want to “cause” another overdose. So, that in turns, translates to I can’t get upset about it all. Another major trigger for his episodes are the kids. They are typical kids who fight and scream and yell at each other on a regular basis. They are amazing souls and I see them as such through all the bickering and being kids-ness, but he can’t see them that way. So, what that leaves me with is trying to run interference so husband doesn’t get super stressed over kid behavior and cause him to enter a downward spiral. This means that I have a very hard time getting out of the house to pursue things that I enjoy doing. I have the right to be happy but I am unable to find it right here, right now, in the situation that I have going on. I should be able to be happy anyways, but it just ain’t happening at the moment.

I know what I want. I want to have my needs validated and understood. I want to do what I feel like I need to do without the stress that surrounds it all. I want Steve to be okay with my need to do this. But at the moment, in the place he is in, he says “yes go do it” because he knows I have the right to do it, but he is far from happy about it. I battle the guilt whenever I try to go out and do things and leave him at home with the kids. This is even harder than it seems as I was a happy hermit before Steve entered the downward spiral. I was happy with being home with him because he was my best friend and had been since I married him. When he entered the depths of depression, I lost that part of him. It forced me to see that I needed to find other people to interact with. People I could talk to on a regular basis in order to keep my sanity. I want the life I had back.

I am feeling that it is all about him at the moment. Maybe that is the way it has to be until he gets better. But, dammit, what about me? Doesn’t what I need and feel matter? At the moment, I am feeling very unvalidated and unimportant. We went to talk to his therapist together on Monday to discuss what can be done to prevent another overdose situation from happening again. I walked out of there feeling no better than when I walked in. Basically, he just charts his depression and I hope he will be able to communicate with me how he is feeling. I HAVE NO CONTROL over this situation at all. It is a bunch of maybes all around. Tonight, he came home with books that his therapist recommended that I read about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I immediately got pissed. And again, more to help me understand how he is processing things. I am tired of trying to understand and second guess what may or may not happen. I want to have a happy healthy family.

As I was going about my chores after this, I was comparing my anger to how I was feeling when I was feeling so connected. It felt like failure to me. But then, a quote of Abraham’s flashed through my mind:

Source energy is with you, calling you toward it all the time. So what does the call of source sound like? Harps and angels? Yes, if you are feeling pretty good. The sound of source sounds different depending on where you are. But one thing is always true. It always sounds and feels just slightly better than where you are.

Abraham-Hicks
Ashland, OR.
7/22/06B

Hmmm, maybe the anger isn’t a failure after all. It is my response to looking at what is and feeling helpless and depressed about it all. As per the emotional guidance scale, that is actually a move in the right direction. That realization actually made me feel a little better about where I am. I am where I am and where I am is okay. (or so says Abraham ) I am still trying to internalize that one.

Through out this rant, I have really been able to focus on what it is I actually want. I just need to let the oars go and stop paddling up stream in order to allow the magnificence of what is in my vibrational escrow to come into my experience. I have several Abraham CDs to listen to so I am intending to hear just the right bit of guidance that will help me through this rough patch.

Life really is good. I really do believe that. At the moment, I am not focusing in a way that will allow me to see it as well as I want to.