Archive for September, 2007

It is soooo cool when you can see things manifest right before your eyes! I had two pretty good ones this weekend. One of them was due to me invisioning something and the other was due to some major appreciation I was doing, but either way, they rocked! I did THAT!

On Saturday evening, I went to the local Fish and Chips shop and as I was sitting at the stop light, I envisioned getting a close up parking space. This place is usually teaming with people so those close up spots are not so easy to come by. As I was driving up, I saw a gentleman getting into his car and wouldn’t you know it, he was parked RIGHT in front of the door! Cool, cool, cool Next time, I am going to envision actually getting in there as they are dumping a new batch of fish into the warmers. I always seem to walk in when they are just putting a new batch of fish into the fryers!

This afternoon, my husband and I were sitting on the deck, soaking up the sun and listening to the neighborhood sounds and birds. Twice, we saw a hawk floating on the air currents. Not once did I see the hawk make any effort at all to get to where he was going. He just floated along on the current. He went quite a distance doing this. I LOVE watching the hawks as they always remind me to go with the flow. They are just absolutely beautiful to me. I thought to myself, projecting to him, bring some friends back with you next time. We watched them float out of site and then went back inside.

Not ten minutes later, I looked out of the office window and saw a FLOCK of hawks floating on the current. A FLOCK I tell you! I ran outside and watched. There were about 15 (!!) of them out there. I have never seen anything like that before. It was WAY too cool to me and I appreciated the amazing scene. I watched them as they split off from each other and went their different ways. What an amazing display! I won’t forget this for a very long time.

What did you manifest today??

I was wandering through YouTube browsing the Abraham Inspired Videos and found this one. I LOVE it and I hope you do too!

Life, as of late, has been very interesting and I have learned a lot about who I really am through the contrast. It sounds funny to say that I appreciate the contrast but I really do. Each time something monumental happens in the contrast arena, I take a huge leap in understanding how the world works. Law of attraction is as real as the Law of Gravity. I, finally, fully understand this. I had the hardest time accepting the fact that I had this immense power to affect change in my life.

I still believe that a lot of my vibrational discord is coming from my childhood programming. Abraham, in the latest workshops, acknowledges that many of the hard, fast, albeit totally wrong, upstream beliefs, we have are rooted in the past. They make it sound so easy, “just change the way you are feeling”. Is it as easy as that? Maybe but sometimes those past beliefs have a way of worming their way into the now almost invisibly but the feeling reaction is the same. Instead of dealing with the issue at hand for what it is, there can be a past programming cloak thrown over it all.

I have been working with Martha for about a month and have seen some dramatic changes. It is funny how EFT works for me. Most of the tapping has been done on my childhood issues but things that have changed in my now are seemingly unrelated. My emotional eating has all but disappeared and I have lost about 8 pounds without any effort. In one of the recent Abraham CDs, there is a woman who couldn’t lose her last 40 pounds. Abraham asked her how does that feel emotionally and then helped her find that she felt like she had to carry the responsibility for everything around her as if her taking on all that emotional baggage would make a difference in other’s lives. I heard that and perhaps found the solution to the extra pounds that I carry around with me and have since I was a child. I have, all my life, tried to mold my behaviors to affect a change in my environment, in hopes of making everyone around me happy in order to get what I needed at the time. LOL, it never really did work, but I persisted and I added the weight of everyone’s issues to my own. With the help of EFT, I have recognized the need to control and guide everything around me (very ineffectually at that!) and realize that I AM VALID and what I need and feel and think IS IMPORTANT. BUT (and that is a big BUT), the only one who can make me feel good is me and I have stopped putting everyone else’s needs first and focused in on what I need. Me first and then everyone else. That is a major change in how I have run my life.

EFT has been incredibly useful for me, but that digging up the past only served to stir up my present. It was WAY too emotional and due to the consistent focusing on those discordant feelings, I manifested quite a bit in my now that I really didn’t want. The Law of Attraction at work. You get what you focus on, whether you like it or not.

I have started working with Martha using Neurofeedback now. I have had only one session, but it appears to have made me feel more centered and calm when presented with potentially freak out inducing situations. It could be a carry over from the EFT but more sessions will tell if the Neurofeedback is working for me.

Computer Geek Warning

After I had my first session with Martha, we were sitting and talking about what I hoped to accomplish with Neurofeedback. I had to think about it a little while she was trying to get out of a program on her computer that had hung up her whole system.

I told her that I really wanted to have control of these things from my past that kept, seemingly taking control, of my now life. I didn’t want to forget about my past. I wanted it to remember it all, but without all the upstream feelings and beliefs that I took away from them.

At this time, she was still wrestling with her computer and had to bring up the task manager in order to kill the program that had taken control.

At that point, I had a computer geek epiphany!

I wanted a task manager for my brain!

We all have our current, right now, programs that we voluntarily have running in our experience.

But then there are these processes going on in the background which can freeze up how we want our now running. Sometimes they are memory hogs which slow down the flow of our lives. Some of the processes are boulders in the river that cause us to get really caught up in the contrast.

In the moment, your first thought is to kill these flow stoppers. A task manager would allow for that, though upon a restful night’s sleep, you would find that the reboot would cause them to come back.

Ultimately, I don’t want to kill off the processes, but rather to lower their priority in how the whole system runs.

End Computer Geek Warning

Abraham really doesn’t recommend the deep discussion of the bad feelings from the past due to how the Law of Attraction works. I know, first hand, how this is. It sucks to have to deal with the after effects of digging up the very upstream feelings well beyond the therapy session! I asked Martha how Neurofeedback works in the task manager analogy and she said that it is like a computer optimizer and program debugger. Hmmm, that sounds good and I don’t have to even focus on the negative stuff to get it to work for me. I feel that I almost have it all working well, but there are program bugs that keep popping up. I’m going to go with the flow and see where the stream takes me!

If you have ever questioned where you are on your vibrational journey, all you need to do is stop, look, and listen. Everything in your experience is there due to where your vibration is. Stop the daily hustle and bustle for just a short time and access where you are.

Look at the people you find around you. They are a pretty good indication of how you are vibrating. Law of attraction brings you what you think and feel whether you like it or not. If you are seeing many negative aspects in your friends, look for the same aspects in yourself as well. You would not be seeing them in other people if you were not a match for the negative aspects yourself. Mind you, it is not the actual aspects that you may have, but the feelings that those aspects stir up that you should be looking for. For example, if you have a friend that constantly lets you down, that feeling of not being important enough is very likely a feeling that you have been focusing on for a while in your life in general. You are vibrating “not important” so law of attraction brings you situations that will fulfill that continue that vibrational trend.

I never realized how true this was until I looked back on my high school years. I had so pretty serious dysfunction going on in my family so my focus was on that. The friends I had at the time, either had that same vibrational set point going on, or perpetuated the feelings I had as a result of how my family was dis-functioning.

What about you? Can you look back and see how your vibrational set point in your teen years netted you friends that matched where you were vibrating?

Another place to look to see how you are vibrating is in your body. Do you have aches and pains? Do you have a manifestation of an illness? If you take a moment and just feel your way around the manifestations, it will give you a good indicator of where you are vibrating. For example, a stiff neck could be a manifestation of you not feeling like you are moving fast or good enough. It could be that you are feeling stuck in something and that you are not able to go in the direction that you want. It could be a whole plethora of feelings that you have been focusing on, consciously or not, that have finally manifested in a physical bodily condition. If you can ferret out what some of the base upstream thoughts you have been having and work to move them to a better place, your manifestation will have to change. Unwanted bodily conditions are just an indication of upstream thoughts.

How are you vibrating? Stop and figure out how you feel right this instant. Are you happy? Are you content? Are you grumpy? Are you angry? Are you frustrated?

You really need to acknowledge how you are feeling right now. If you are on the positive end of the emotional guidance scale, keep what you are doing and thinking up! Good for you! You have lots of great things from your vibrational escrow coming your way.

If you are on the lower end of the scale, in feelings that don’t feel as good as you would like them to be, now’s the time to do the work necessary to move your way up the scale.

Don’t know how you feel? Well then, it is time to work on that ingrained belief that what you feel, think, believe is not important. That childhood programmed belief held me back for a LONG time. Know that what you feel IS IMPORTANT! It is the only thing that really matters because if you don’t acknowledge how you are feeling, you don’t know where you are headed vibrationally. As Abraham says, if you don’t do something about your negative emotions, don’t worry, it will get bigger. If you still don’t do something about it, don’t worry, it will get bigger still. Eventually, you will end up with a manifestion in your life that you REALLY don’t want.

Isn’t it better to deal with the upstream emotions when they are small and managable rather than dealing with them when they become something really big?

I think so!

From Abraham-Hicks Quotes Mailing List:

There will be a time, not so far from now, that you will look back on this phase of your life and instead of condemning it or beating up on it… Instead of blaming or guilting, you will feel appreciation for it, because you will understand that a renewed desire for life was born out of this time period that will bring you to physical heights that you could not have achieved without the contrast that gave birth to this desire.

Excerpted from a workshop in Boston, MA on Saturday, October 4th, 1997

All Is Well

You know, I can so see this as the truth. My life, now, is dramatically different and better than what it was before I started listening to Abraham. I can see, as if lit by a spot light, how making it through the contrast has vastly improved my today. I am happier and healthier than I have ever been. Had it not been for the contrast I have lived, I wouldn’t be where or who I am now. I so appreciate the contrast.