Archive for January, 2008

Ever have one of those days where you start out KNOWING you are facing the wrong direction but push that little snowball down that giant, snow covered, hill anyway?

Oh yeah, I had one of those Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day’s today. Knew it was coming but pushed that little snowball down that hill anyway until it became a HUGE, house crushing, avalanche.

I have to snicker because it was very much a smack across the forehead ala the V-8 commercials but instead of “you could’ve had a V-8″ it was a “I did that” series of occurrences that really made the day not very pleasant. I knew it in the middle of it all, but couldn’t call that snowball back. Instead, I kept up with the momentum of it all. Actually, it pretty much sucked. It sucked in the middle of it all and still sucks, for that matter.

Yeah, I know Clyde, this is actually making the situation continue on, but this is one that I can’t come to terms with on my own. I am having a very difficult time applying Abraham’s teaching to this situation. I have a full fledged attack of “what is”-itis.

The “what is” of the situation is that my have a husband who has PTSD which makes a normal, loving relationship, next to absolutely impossible. I want xyz, but he is not able to do what I need (and don’t feel is unrealistic). I have grown and changed through this relationship, as well, in a direction that he has not. Not a good combination of circumstances. I am tired of the “what is”-ness of it all and am having more than my normal share of meltdowns about it all.

What I want, with this specific person, is so hard to imagine at the moment. It seems so far out of reach. I can envision a relationship like what I want, but can’t see it with my husband. I want it with my husband so therein lies the problem. It appears to be a trial by fire of Abraham’s teachings. I know that if I could look at this differently, the outcome would be different. I just can’t find, at the moment, the way to view this that will give me the relief that I am looking for.

Can you create a situation, a relationship with a specific person, if the other person isn’t tapped in to it all? I want it to be so, but can’t see it happening so that is causing the contrast in my current situation. I know it “will all be okay in the end” but can I include him in my final edited verson of the movie of my life? I guess that is what is causing me the problems at this moment.

Time for another glass of wine or perhaps just bed. Hmm, guess Advil might be advisable as well.

The children desire freedom! And every particle of their being from their Source says, “You are free. You are so free, that every thought you offer, the entire Universe jumps to respond to it.” And so, to take that kind of knowledge and try to confine it in any way, defies the Laws of the Universe. You must allow your children to be free, because the entire Universe is set up to accommodate that. And anything you do to the contrary will only bring you regret. You cannot contain those that cannot be contained. It defies Law.

Excerpted from a workshop in Atlanta, GA on Sunday, September 19th, 1999

All Is Well

It’s funny. I never realized how I have been neglecting the law of attraction fine tuning principles, that I have learned, to my job. I have the broader principles down pat. We have built an amazing business that continues to grow and evolve. We have wonderful employees that do a fabulous job.

I had to laugh when I read Dean’s latest posts on his blog. We both seem to be on the same wave length.Three Important Success Tips with the Law of Attraction, served to remind me how I need to be more attentive to what I am consciously doing in life and on the job. I still have a little bit of the creating by default that jumps up and yells “You did that!” to me every so often.

“I attracted this day at work” caused me to laugh because I could see how I created less than desirable outcomes on the job recently too.

We recently had to move our server to another location of our webhost. I was perfectly happy where we orginally were located, but due to company growth, they had us move to another location. Migrating servers can be a real pain, but for the most part it went off without a hitch. Until, that is, the problems started happening after all our data was fully on the new machine. I found myself saying, over and over again, “we have had nothing but problems since we moved over here”. And guess what? The universe complied and we had quite a run of problems with our new server. Not only were they tech related, but our visitors did things that caused our server to choke as well. Over and over we had “nothing but problems”. That is, until I finally said “I HAVE TO STOP saying that!” I refocused on the fact that they always helps us sort out anything that happened and that they do have excellent customer service. In a very short time, the problems stopped appearing. Phew!

I also had an instance that was like WOW I did create that. We are in the process of hiring another new full timer. The employee that I had hoped would be here for this position found herself pregnant and then had her son at work with her until he became mobile at about 7 months old. Needless to say, her filling full time position wasn’t going to happen. I had spent some time, before advertising for a new employee, doing some sour grapes griping to myself about it all. Her getting pregnant really put a wrench in my plans. Sigh, but it all works out in the end, I kept telling myself. Before I started advertising, I was also looking at ways to advertise our new website. Google Adwords is a great way to do this. I was researching firms that could help and looking into learning it myself.

The first person to respond to my ad had spent 3 years working with Adwords so I was thinking that would be an extra bonus in her favor. I called her in for an interview and it went pretty well. Well except for the fact that she disclosed that she was pregnant! It was a real bummer to find that out. She seemed a really good fit until that point. I actually had a good laugh about it while driving home. “I did that!” I am now in the process of formulating the ideal employee once again. I did it before and had someone apply that fit the bill pretty well and has turned out to be an awesome employee.

As our business is doing great already without the tweaking, I am pretty excited about what it will morph into once I get the fine tuning down! Wow! I can’t see what is in my vibrational escrow in regards to out business!

Relationships are forever. They are eternal. Not just permanent in this lifetime. Once you establish a relationship, it is an eternal relationship. What holds bad things in your life is always your attention to those bad things, always.

Excerpted from a workshop in Sacramento, CA on Saturday, May 13th, 2000

All Is Well

Yesterday was a phenomenal day. I basically had my Easy button strapped to me.

It started on the way to work. While I was driving I decided to do some future visualization of my future together with Steve. It was really cool. We were spending lots of quality, loving, happy time together adventuring all over the place. I didn’t just think the thoughts but I was feeling them. So much so that I was tearing up with joy. It felt really good. After my 68 seconds or so (actually longer than that) I just decided to find things on the way to work to appreciate. Like the beautiful flowers still blooming away in the middle of winter. The hawks that were floating along on the air currents. The perfectly still ponds with wispy fog coming off of them.

I had gotten myself into a really good place by the time I got to work. That little 20 minute trip to work focusing positively laid the framework of how the rest of my day played out.

My main goal of the morning was to sift through our job applications and send out email interviews. A couple of days ago, I had been searching for the original email I sent out the last time I had to hire a full timer. Unfortunately, I couldn’t find it no matter where I was looking on my computer and in Outlook. When I sat down to rewrite the letter, I went to save the first paragraph and found the original! Yeah, that saved LOTS of time and I was able to send out the letters in just a couple of minutes.

That was easy!

After the letters, I needed to get 1099 sent out to all the people who worked for us on a consultant basis during the year. As always the government likes to make things really complicated. I had so many copies of the forms for each person that I was at the “hair pulling out” stage because I couldn’t figure out what to do with them all! The front door beeped and someone asked for me. Amazingly enough, it was our accountant, on a surprise visit, dropping something off. What looked like something that looked like it would take quite a while to figure out only took about 30 seconds with his help!

That was easy!

I went to see get my does of EFT on Monday with Martha. It was a great visit. I had asked her if she knew of any other practitioners in our area because Steve might be interested in time to visit one. She didn’t know of anyone. The only two around here that I know of, I have gone to. I was feeling that Steve would be a little uncomfortable going to them not knowing what I may have said to them. ( He always assumes the worst! LOL ) I left feeling so much better. On Tuesday, I got a great email from Carol Look. I went nosing around her site (great site by the way ) I found a link to a listing of EFT practitioners that I hadn’t seen before. This one listed EFT practitioners in NC that were not listed on Gary Craig’s site. I was able to pass that on to Steve as an additional resource for him.

Thanks to the universe for seeing my rocket of desire and sending me the information I was looking for!

That was easy!

We have been looking for a sitter so Steve and I can go out and spend some quality time together. I put an ad on SitterCity and had quite a response. One of the gals there said something that tweaked my interest. She described what she did in her spare time out of college and I found out, after some questioning, that she is a sorority sister with a sitter we used to have who the kids absolutely adored. The kids begged for her to some by for a visit to make sure we were a good fit. She came over last night and the kids LOVED her! She seems really friendly and attentive to the kids. She is coming back on Friday for a much needed night out!

That was easy!

I fully attribute the flow of the day to starting it out on the right foot. It was really a go with the flow type day and things just sort of came to me. I guess I was in an allowing state of mind after spending some time focusing and appreciating. I will definitely be making a concerted effort to start my days out like that on a more regular basis.