Archive for August, 2008

There is nothing for you to go back and live over, or fix, or feel regret about now. Every part of your life has unfolded just right. And so –now — knowing all that you know from where you now stand, now what do you want? The answers are now coming forth to you. Go forth in joy, and get on with it.

Excerpted from a workshop in Virginia Beach, VA on Saturday, April 12th, 1997

Our Love,
Jerry and Esther

From Abraham-Hicks Daily Quote Email

Okay, so it’s day 34 of the 45 day challenge. Wow, so much accomplished, in such a short time!

I can honestly say that I am so much more at peace now that I have worked with those thoughts in my head that told me I wasn’t worthy of having people accept me. While the outward appearances don’t show much, the internal change that I am feeling is overwhelmingly amazing.

I have used many different, very helpful, tools – EFT, paraliminals, and The Work process by Byron Katie. They all have helped me move to a place where I am SO much more at ease around people, and myself.

It is actually very funny how things have been flying at me in the last month. I have really wanted to have people around me. I wanted to be comfortable with that. I have scheduled many different things outside of my home and business and am actually really pleased (with very little anxiety) with the anticipation of going out!

I think that the internal mind shift, that I have made, has allowed people to flow into my life that I have previous blocked out.

On the 15th, Steve and I closed house for my mom to move into, which is near to us. That is monumental!! The story I told about my relationship with my mom was one of immense struggle and heart ache. I have let go of that story with much growing on my part. She doesn’t have to change in order for me to love her. Wow! What a revelation. She is planning on moving the 2nd week in September. LOL what a conclusion to the challenge here!

Within the past month, I have discovered that what I needed wasn’t other people accepting me, but rather, me accepting me. My ex-husband and I finally got all the paperwork filled out that is necessary for him to get an annulment so he can remarry his wife in the Catholic church. Through the whole process, I came face to face with the pandora’s box full of things that I had done in my past. Things that I hadn’t really faced or forgiven myself for. In filling out the paperwork, with a single sentance that was OH SO very black and white, describing a situation that was a multitude of grey shades, I realized that *I* was the one beating myself up over this and that HE was actually okay with it (some 13 years later). That self forgiveness is a powerful thing.

The saying, “Today is the first day of the rest of your life” is so very true. Those thoughts of what was and what might be, serve to stop you from living RIGHT NOW! I think I am so very ready to live in the NOW and very excited for how my life will unfold because of it.

So, I guess my “issue” has a title. Social Anxiety. LOL that pretty much sums it up. The more I consider being out in a social situation, the more anxious I get. LOL

This anxiety has really kept me from moving forward with my life. I had convinced myself that being a Happy Hermit was just fine, but I have reached a place in my life where I am not as happy with that choice as I was in the past.

The Boundless Living Challenge is giving me a platform to move forward with my life that I may not have done otherwise. I WANT to change, but didn’t have a real reason to. The Challenge came around in the perfect time. Ask and It Is Given – and this time, I actually allowed it to come in!

I have been working on myself using the following tools:

• Paraliminals from LearningStrategies.com
• Listening to Byron Katie, Eckhart Tolle and Abraham-Hicks
• Emotional Freedom Techniques (aka Tapping)
  from EFT-Downloads and with a Therapist covering, among other things,
  • – Procrastination
  • - Self Love
  • - Self Esteem
  • - Anxiety Relief
• Ultimate Confidence Hypnotherapy from Wendi.com
• Actually getting out there and DOing

I have been making small steps and have been getting visible results.

I think one of the things that has really helped me was a session with my EFT therapist, Martha Delafield.

I taped it and am sharing it here with you all, if you care to listen. She is a flow tapper. She talks and we tap the points over and over again. If you aren’t familiar with the tapping points, Rick Wilkes has a nice diagram that shows you where the points are. We do stop now and then to take a deep breath. Talk a little and then start tapping again. When you listen, it just sounds like a regular therapy session, but tapping is basically non stop for a little over an hour.

I have broken up the session into smaller chunks which run about 10 minutes a piece.

While these are my issues, I really believe that tapping along as you listen may help move blocks that you didn’t know you had. That is the amazing thing about borrowing benefits. You don’t have to dig deep in your own history in order to benefit from tapping.

The issues that are covered in this session are pretty common so you are bound to have some movement in your experience.

EFT Session – Part 1 – 7 minutes 20 sec

Part 1 has the following topics in it:

Uncomfortable having conversation in group situation.
“They don’t like me.”
“I’ll make a fool out of myself.”
“I’ll say something stupid.”
“They don’t want me”
“I’m not really welcome here.”
“I might offend someone.”
“I might be misunderstood.”
“Maybe not safe”
“Even though I have this fear that people don’t want me / don’t like me, I choose to feel welcome, anyway.”
Fear of exclusion or indifference.
“I’m not wanted enough.”
“I’m not important enough.”
“I’m not good enough.”

EFT Session – Part 2 – 9 minutes 35 sec

Part 2 has the following topics in it:

“Just waiting to be rejected.”
“Wanting a cue that I’m okay” (mom issue there LOL)
Nonacceptance
“Practice feeling welcome”
Eye contact issue
Perceptual Habits
“Afraid of rejection”
“Afraid of humiliation”
“Afraid of being shamed in some way”
“Fear of not being received well and getting cold shoulder.”
Intellectually knowing better but still having emotional UMPH
“Taking it personally”
Part of your healing is in the giving without any regard to how it’s received.
Why it’s not recieved well has nothing to do with you.

EFT Session – Part 3 – 10 minutes 18 sec

Part 3 has the following topics in it:

“Trying to gain something.”
“If I try hard enough, it will work”
Needing positive response.
Being acknowledged.
Feeling Validated.
Life is good but…
Limiting Self
Sheer force
Making it happen.
Dropping the struggle.
Faceless mas of rejection and indifference.
“Tried hard but got nothing in return.”

EFT Session – Part 4 – 8 minutes 39 sec

Part 4 has the following topics in it:
“Too painful”
“I don’t need anyone”
“I’m strong, I don’t need anybody.”
Seeing that it doesn’t need to be a one on one give and take.
Don’t limit yourself.
Experience receiving from all the conduits that the universe has, instead of expecting it from a single source.
“Need to” vs “want to” or “choosing to”
Want that full KNOWING again

EFT Session – Part 5 – 10 minutes 28 sec

Part 5 has the following topics in it:
“Where did the KNOWing feeling go?”
Wanting clarity.
Allowing greatness in.
The Universe says yes every time.
Aligned intention.
Acceptance is inevitable.
Feeling like I belong here.
Feeling like an intruder.
Projecting into future interactions.
Wanting it to be easy.

LOL the “Love you too sweetie” was directed to Jazzy, Martha’s dog.

EFT Session – Part 6 – 8 minutes 48 sec

Part 6 has the following topics in it:

Practical conversational tips.
Small Talk
Where are you from? What do you do?
Taking it personally.
It’s not all about me.
The wounded kid.
Recognizing the pain.

EFT Session – Part 7 – 6 minutes 27 sec

Part 7 has the following topics in it:

Going slowly, acknowledging the pain.
It’s not all or nothing.
I have infinite time to get this right.
Be gentle with the little kid self.
Getting a handle on things that have alluded me.
Harvesting gifts.

After this session, I saw some major shifts in my feelings and behaviors.

I have reached out to several people saying that we should get together some time. Nothing has been set up, and you know, if the attempts don’t pan out, I’m cool with that. No rejection feelings at all.

I have signed up to help out at my daughter’s school. She is in 6th grade and this is the first time that I have felt comfortable enough to do this. I actually did it without any “what ifs” or excuses.

I booked my tickets to Tampa and am looking forward to the trip instead of feeling apprehensive.

Yeah ME!

The new book is now available!

Money, and the Law of Attraction: Learning to Attract Wealth, Health, and Happiness – Paperback Book

Money, and the Law of Attraction: Learning to Attract Wealth, Health, and Happiness – Audio CD